done and done

it's always nice to get a straight forward answer. to get so fed up and reach the point that you just have to say what's on your mind without holding back in order to get the answer you need to hear. it may not always be the answer you want, or have hoped for, but nonetheless it's the truth, and that means more than any fluffy beat around the bush bullshit that typically comes out of people's mouth's

it's amazing what the imagination is capable of. the excuses that are formed, the exceptions, the pictures painted in one's mind. We create scenes in our own heads, taking what happens in our daily life and dissecting it, carefully tracing out each action, reaction, even the dialogue. a story is created in our minds, and sometimes it couldn't be farther from the truth.

i think it's human nature to expect the best from people. to believe that someone can be better than they envision, better than what other's see; it is what we were wired to do. nobody enjoys being disappointed, feeling pain, experiencing a broken heart. therefore, we constantly search for the best in people, we make excuses for them, we love them despite the mistakes, and we forgive. we want to love. we want to care. we want what we envision to be the truth.

however, it is easier to believe the worst. you don't want it to be true, you'd do anything to make it a happy ending, but at the same time it's simple to grasp. it's the worst of the worst, and it can only get better. you can build your truth, make yourself happy, make sure you are creating the reality you want and believe; because no matter what you will have that.