scattered

I'm not exactly sure why I think it's a great idea to drink coffee when I'm trying to study because i know within 2 minutes I won't be able to focus on one thing for longer than 4 minutes, especially something important like oh I don't know, my college education.

Instead of just taking an hour to read articles, look through my notes, and memorize the dumb study guide I have spent the last 3 hours:

• reading The Pact
• locking myself out of my apartment
• looking up concerts close to home over summer
• looking up plane tickets to anywhere but florida
• reading random blogs
• wishing I had a ridiculous amount of money to spend of Free People's clothing
• attempting and failing to get my scanner to work
• staring at facebook
• listening to the new she & him album
• and actually scanning through my articles for Social Problems.

It's not that I don't find the information interesting, I do for the most part. Well other than when my brain refuses to accept anything to do with the words "economy"and "government", yeah it's great, I have to make a conscious effort to understand what I'm reading when those words are involved. But give me an article on naming children, relationships, or gender and I suck it all in....thanks brain.

Maybe it's because I feel so scattered. I don't know what exactly I'm working towards. I know what I would like to have, but I can't have most of those things now. Money and distance are not my friends. So for now I just focus on today and tomorrow.... hopefully that will last for more than 4 minutes.